Saturday's the big day...Sal will walk graduation. I am a bit incredulous....but ever so grateful to finally be here as a family(In one piece and still functioning!). He has one more paper to finish and 1 more final to study for and he's done!
What I really find amazing and just awesome is how at peace with what's next I am. We don't have a what's next in view, nothing, not even a possibility of something. I would most certainly have expected to be in major turmoil over that, but instead I have a reassuring peace. I have always known that God has it all in view all the time, but I am rarely ever OK much less at peace with not knowing at least some of that view. Yet, only because I know God is doing it, I am more than OK with nothing. Normally I would be very uneasy about what Sal may or may not be thinking or how active or non-active he may be in pursuing whatever is next. Instead I am learning to trust HIM.
Yes, it is essentially a basic principle of faith. We put our trust in Christ. Even when first choosing Him as our Lord and Savior....but it is taking a much needed deeper root in my heart. For many reasons I put my trust in what I see and can control. And will often take a very active roll in making sure that whatever the situation it is trustworthy, or should I say I will take the situation into my control. Which is very much not trustworthy...I can make a real mess of things!
For 6 years I have tried and tried to figure our what's next. I have cried and worried and been anxious, but now at the end of this season of school when I most expected to be scrambling I am trusting. So today I am very thankful for that peace. Trusting in HIS sovereignty and knowing that He has plans for us no longer wanting to make those plans on my own.